Oh, goodness. Life.

As you've probably noticed, I changed the blog look a little bit… i like to mix things up every so often. Keep it exciting, you know?

Lately, I've just been really melancholy. I kind of hate that word, and certainly don't like it when it's referring to me.

How about, instead of writing a bunch of things that will sound good and get nice comments, I'll just be honest about life. Is that okay?

I'm not satisfied with how i'm living. I don't spend enough time with Jesus. I am not seeking him with all that I am. I'm looking to others to fulfill me. I spend too much time on my computer. I feel like I suck at life. I know the truth. I need to make some changes. That scares me. I have lots of hopes and dreams that truly deep down I don't think will ever happen. That scares me. And thinking that they might really happen scares me, too.

I know the truth, and I know what I need and for that I am grateful. I must ask for courage and wisdom. And seek the one who knows me best.

Thanks for reading.

Also, if you ever want to totally make my day… send me a hand-written letter.
My dear kindred spirit, Annah Beth sent me one today and I love her ever so much for the gesture.

-J