Wednesday, August 19, 2009

Rain, solitude, and the overwhelming.

Life is full. Full of hope, adventure, love... but also pain, disappointment, and stress.

A lot has been going on in mine as of late (my new favorite phrase, by the way.)
Instead of telling you all of the things going on, I will tell you what I have learned because of them...

Parents are something not to be taken for granted. I've been without mine for only a little over and week and I still have a couple more to go- I have too often needed a "mom hug" or a piece of advice from Dad.

Family (cousins, in particular) are just wonderful. My cousin Chelsie came to visit from AZ for a week and I realized once again how blessed I am to have such lifelong friends in my cousins. Did that make sense?

God is in control. I had a really weird, horrible pain in my side for a few days (hopefully it's gone for good now) and it was not pleasant one bit. I love knowing that my creator God knows exactly what's going on though different doctors tell me different things.

Material things don't matter!! Now this, friends was a hard one to get over. I accidentally formatted my memory card that had all of my Alaska pictures on it and no they were not saved anywhere else. Though there may be a miraculous way to recover them (haven't tried yet,) I've pretty much resigned to the fact they are gone. Sad, but okay because they are just photos; mere reflections of the amazing experiences I had.

Change happens- People change. The weather changes. Gasoline prices change. It all happens whether we think it sucks really bad or not.

This most certainly does not encapsulate the last week, but it gives you an idea of what my adventure, my journey in life has been like recently.

Thanks for listening.

Scribbling thoughts on an old receipt-
I can't seem to get them out of my head.
I'm going crazy, and i think you're the problem.
I wish I could blink and you'd be forgotten.

What would life be like without you here-
How would I live or even care?
Would I ever forget, would you fade away-
would your memory blur with each passing day?

Well, that would be nice, and bittersweet
but I know that's not how life works.
My hopes and dreams seem now like a curse
and yet things still seem to get worse...

Tell me what you think.


Monday, August 3, 2009

good country for the country haters like me...

This is too often the case...

As the tears well up in my eyes,
I feel the pounding in my ears-
the pounding of a million thoughts,
feelings, emotions racing through my mind.

So much to do, with not enough time;
so much to say, but no words seem to rhyme.
How can I express to you, or give you a sign
when I don't even know what I'm feeling inside.

I've been into Alison Krauss lately.

It's weird because I am not really a country fan but I think she has enough folk in her music, I like it. A lot.

Here's one for you.